I saw this signpost the other day when we were out for a walk, and it really sums up how I feel today.
After weeks and weeks of not getting enough sleep, my body has finally given in and I have the most terrible tonsillitis. I can't remember ever feeling this poorly before and it just proves how important sleep is for the body and the healing process. Son 2 is now sleeping "through" with no problem, I must admit there were times I never thought it would happen. However now we have another problem, early waking, sometimes as early as 4.45am. That is it for the day then, he is up! That creates the problem that he finds it very hard to carry on until his one nap of the day which is after lunch.
I sometimes look at my face and I don't recognise the old woman looking back at me. Photos of me five years or so ago that at the time I thought were horrible, now look lovely, fresh and youthful. Now my skin is dry and sallow, my eyes permanently puffy and sore. I have no energy and no motivation to do anything. The sleep debt I have racked up over the last year is well and truly catching up with me; I owe, big time.
Sleep is not for the weak, it is utterly essential.
Oh sweetie I'm sorry to hear this but totally relate. Sleep deprivation is the worst. Simply the worst. Failing getting enough sleep, try camomile tea to relax you (rescue remedy is great to help with low moods too) and I swear by evening primrose and vit b6 (I can't take at mo as pregnant) but that saved me. My friends can't stop thanking me for letting them know about it too. Thanks to an amazing GP who told me it would help balance hormones and make me feel happy. Take that sleep deprivation!
ReplyDeleteHi and thanks for your tips! I once tried evening primrose and it made me feel quite sick. I agree about B6 though, I used that when I was trying to get preg and it seemed to help with PMT. I think I will try it again, thanks for the advice.
DeleteIt gets easier! cat x
ReplyDeleteI just said it gets easier. I have been thinking about what I just posted and I lied. My morning goes like this, 6 am Lea appears by our bed, she sings, shouts, prods, jumps on my head, I ignore in a vain attempt to say asleep. So she moves onto Daddy, he does the same. So off to Jay (4 year old big brother), he starts screaming “get out of my bed”, “Mummy Leas in my room, tell her”. I try to again ignore feeling like I just have not had quite enough sleep. Jay and Lea start fighting Jay comes into out room, followed by a crying Lea, shouting “Jay did it”. Jay gets in our bed, Lea follows trying to kick her brother but manages to kick me in the face several times , Jay pulls my hair kicks his Dad as he attempts to get to his sister. Lea not satisfied that everyone is awake starts on the dog, leading him into Jays room to the window, where she knows he will bark loudly at anything that moves, if there’s no burglars out there the willow tree always needs a barking at. So its now 6.15, the whole streets awake and Lea is happy. I get up feeling like I have had no sleep again, the same as everyday for the last 4 and a bit years. Maybe a full face lift is the only solution because I have aged drastically in four years. Its now nearly school time for son, Lea has for the fourth time stripped off, god why me!!??
ReplyDeleteOh Cat, that actually gives me some comfort as it sounds worse than my starts to the day! My two at the moment get on ok and Son 1 is very caring and gentle to Son 2.
DeleteI agree about the ageing, my hands too, look really dry and sorry for themselves, WEEP!