First things first, get rid of that boyfriend. He's spoiling your fun and trying to control you whilst at the same time most probably being completely unfaithful. I've learnt over the years that people who are jealous like that behave that way because they know they themselves can't be trusted. It will also be good for him to actually have a bit of a shock and go out and get a job. There's also the small point you have nothing in common and in years to come you will cringe that you ever went out with him. He will actually end up marrying that girl that he talks about all the time, so even though he'll be upset for a while, it has a happy ending so there's no need to feel guilty.
The other thing is, stop doubting yourself and worrying about your exams, you're going to do really well and completely surprise yourself, it really isn't worth all that worrying. I wish I could tell you a bit about University and how it's going to completely disappoint you. In fact you've got a pretty groovy set of friends right now which will be hard to find again, so be nice to them and don't keep ditching them in favour of your loser boyfriend. You are expecting University to be a big ball of fun and going out all the time, the fact is that because you are going to get good A Levels, you are going to end up on a course with dead brainy people who are only interested in doing well (imagine that!), and you're going to act all aloof and like you are too cool for school and no-one will like you. There's not much I can say about that but do try and be friendly, even if they are called Rupert and Casper, they didn't name themselves, poor devils.
Take up exercise as well, if you don't then you are going to get a little...podgy. Learn to look after yourself and be kind to yourself too, eat regular meals and don't do everything to excess.
University isn't really going to suit you, don't worry about finding a husband there, you aren't mature enough to know what you want anyway. TRY to concentrate on your course and looking for opportunities, as it's going to set you back a few years if you don't. If I'm honest the next 5 years are going to be really hard, you're going to find it really tough going into the real world, although you will eventually find out that you prefer being busy and working hard in a job. Above all, try to find what makes you happy, look for it in every nook and cranny and don't rest until you find it, because later on you won't have time to look.
|18 year old fun...|
See you in 16 years.
Love Heather xx